I should be sleeping but I'm not.


But I'll probably go to sleep soon


ish....


Life's been pretty good. My headaches are back but I had a feeling about that...kinda dunno. They come and they go really but a lot of the times lately I think I've been going to bed later, whether it be consiously or subconsiously, because I'm afraid how I'll feel in the morning.

But that's the bad news.

Good news is I've been great really, I've been exceedingly busy with weddings; one of which was on halloween and I was a bridesmaid for that and it was so incredibly fun, working out, preparing for grad. school in Oz, and hanging out with people when I can.  Then I've been watching Bones lately.  Good lord I'm loving that show. I started like.....I dunno about 2 months ago and I'm gonna be getting disc 1 of season 4 in the mail this weekend. UNF YES I'M SO EXCITED.

I watched Bleach Fade to Black and while it did in many ways fill my gap in fangirlish needs for Bleach as of late I couldn't help but think how gorgeous some of the character designs are, especially cuz this is bleach we're takling about. I know its the movies but they just seemed to be a lot more detailed like even when it was like in between shots they seemed to do a good job. At first it kinda seemed wierd the varying qualities but I got used to it after awhile. Also, I thoroughly enjoyed that this scene was redone as you can see : here, there, tres and this cuz it's a good shot of Rukia lol. But yes it very much made me happy and I thought some of that scythe choreography at the end was really impressive btw. 

And fucking jezumz crow i'ts 1 a.m. I need to go sleeeeeeeeeep.

Night all.

P.S. this weeks episode of Bones gave me the epiphany that I think Wendall is EXCEEDINGLY attractive.  Unf? I think so my friends, I think so.
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"Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow."

Some words....you just can't say no matter how you want to.  And sometimes you need to be reminded of the fact that you do have a lucky life...everyone.  Everyone is blessed.

I've been struggling with this concept for the past month or so, and it's been hard.  Cuz the one thing that I was proud of has been turning against me. 

I'm STILL struggling but I know certaint hings now and they are enough to give me comfort to find out the answers that I seek.  Now it's just getting back on to the path and essentially killing two birds with one stone both my present wants and the wants that reflect what needs to be done by Febraury.

I'm back on track, to what I need to do before February.

I will make things right, I will tell him that.  I will make the best of the time I have left.  I will do what I need to do and see what I neede to see.  

And in the end

Everything will fall into place.





And by the way, I love you all and I think you are awesome





Just so you know.



And yes you too. Everyone.  


Don't let me go. Don't let me go. Don't let me go.

SO HIYA FL WASSUP

I'm aware that I have several lovely iconers as friends on here so rather than IM each one of you individuall I figured I'd just broadcast it here and see what I get for results.

I need someone to make me a FUCKTON of manga colored icons.  Most are for RP purposes but I wanna use some also for personal use as well.  Due to the fact that I'm hoping for quite a lot and that I kinda want them soon i'm more then willing to pay from $20-$50 (in fact I insist that I pay you lol, starting price is 20 easily) and it'll range depending on how quickly it's done and if I like it maybe you could do more and get more money or something like that? Idk.  I just figured most of my FL is strapped for cash and I can't seem to find the stuff I want and I DO want it right away.  

Please inquire below through comment or IM me at Kirschefais if you are in fact interested.

Thank you

Good lord this happens when I work too much /g

Okay so fucking zomfg ninja fast update while my poptart fixes before I dash off to work.

Some of you already know this but my computer is being super merga ultra gay and keyboard hasn't been working.  Because of this I took RP hiatuses everywhere becaues...well...I couldn't TYPE.  At first it was hiatus for personal reasons, but then, well, I just HAD to cuz woah wow fucked up.  So I go to fix it the other day and they tell me that the fourth fix geek squad fixation replaces your laptop and if it wasn't for my mom strolling by as soon as I finish the agreement saying that it's okay that they overwrite my data that I realize that because I DID get my motherboard replaced that yes, this is the 4th time.  I mentally facepalmed because my external doesn't seem to be working so now I have to get THAT fixed before I can get my computer fixed.  So that's another THREE WEEKS (one for getting the external fixed cuz I'm gonna have my buddy ryan fix it, and two for teh computer)

/FUCKING GROANS

So yes, bare with me guys will you?  And a post deep unconditional apology for salve I feel like such a dick for not being around, but as I said in my email to you, once I gett this straightened out this week hopefully I can be around more on my mom's laptop.

And dissidia and Hana Kimi are consuming my life when I'm not trying to work out damn computer issues and I'm not at work.  They are crack I swear.....

And now it's almost 7:40 and I'm suppose to be leaving in 10 minutes. 

/SCREEEEEEEEEEEEAMS

Love you all, I swear. 

I feel all and all that a HUMONGOUS update has been in order too much to update about frankly.  And the reason I haven't updated sooner was because I've been both too busy to do so and, more importnatly, that I have too much to talk about that I didn't want to spam your FL because it is in fact all important stuff.  Plus my keyboard hasn't been working so even when I've been on AIM I haven't talked to people really because it's hard because my g, h, backspace, and apostrophe's don't work; in addition sometimes my o,u,e,r, and numbers don't work either as well as my arrows.  So yah...no point in messaging or even RPing, considering I'm taking a non-official break from that too. 

But yes for the matter at hand.

Last week i found out.......

I GOT MOTHER EFFING INTO GRAD SCHOOL IN MOTHER EFFIN SYDNEY, GUYS.  THAT MEANS THAT I'M GOING TO AUSTRALIA THIS TIME NEXT FEBRUARY/MARCH WOOOOOO HOoOOOOOOooO.  For those that don't know, but most of you do, it is been a lifetime dream of mine to go to Australia.  Ever since the olympics back in 2000 I was FASCINATED with the country and the people and since then it's been an obsession that has grown on with time the more I learn about it.  When I found out about study abroad in high school I KNEW that's where I wanted to go and was so crushed when I found out that I didn't have the time nor the proper GPA to do such, and I thought I would NEVER get to go. 

Then low and behold, an oppurtunity arose.  In my junior year and into my senior year I really began to get interested in International Relations and that would eventually become apart of my concentration in school rather than just history.  What at first was a llove of anime developed into a love of Japanese culture and lifestyle and somehow my interest in history of US foreign policy and relations as well as my interest in Japan somehow converged in my Senior year and I loved studying governments and policies particularly those in asia.  And while I did almost flunk out of the course,  that SE Asia Economics and Politics course was one of the most intriguing courses I've ever taken and I really wish to learn more about the region in grad school. SO YAH,  BASICALLY I WAS LIKE OH MAN PERFECT WINDOW FOR ME.  Cuz IR majors, it's almost a prereq for anybody and everybody that they have to spen sometime abroad, so I figured why not grad school and thus I've been applying and what not.

Then last week I'm at work and it's the first thing in the morning and I got an email from i.e. University of New South Wales and it stated that they had made a decision on my application.  I knew I had good enough GPA and good enough to get in but still didn't change the fact I was nervous as fuck.  I downloaded the attach doc and sure enough first thing I saw was LETTER OF OFFER right near my name and it proceed to say the whole shpeel.  I seriously must have read like letter of offer like 5 times before I continued.

And I didn't squeal or curse or anything when I read it. 

I just stared......and stared......

And before I knew it? I was crying, not heavily, but crying to the point where I was at the point where it might potentially be noticeable because I was sniffling.


I mean FUCK I never cry, only when I'm upset.  I don't think I cried when I got into BU or...when I did...maybe I did when I got into Fenwick, but I don't know man. It took a LOT to do that to me.

Because fuck how else are you suppose to react when you finally realize that your lifelong goal, something that you've always wanted but could never have is coming true. That your just too happy, too beside yourself that it's ACTUALLY happening that your beyond pure ecstasy.  After telling my manager Glenn that I stepped out for a few minutes, I called my mom and she was worried cuz I sounded genuinely upset, like I had just been crying, and I was ilke PFFFFFFFF NO MOM GET OUT I GOT INTO SCHOOL I'M FINE LOL.  And I called a bunch of other people and texted them and just yah...crazy day, and everyone at work congratulated me and it was just....awesome.

Hell, wow, just talking about all that, about what it felt like is making me teary eyed.  I just...I can't believe it fuck man.  I've wanted this for so long it REALLY doesn't seem like it's real.  That tomorrow I'm going to wake up and realize that HAHA IT'S ALL A DREAM, KEEP DREAMING YOU!  But no...it's not.  I'm going.  

It actually kinda made me laughed but I prayed on the toilet after I told everybody and I cried some more.  Just...basking in how lucky I am, how God made it so perfect for me and just made everything okay for me in the end that I can't HELP but be grateful for him for it.  

It's just....wow, I still can't believe it.  But yeah, it's really happening, and because of it a lot of things are gonna happen and I'm making a lot of changes in me and towards others, SO WATCH OUT LOL.  

Oh...yah...I have a new job too, I've been meaning to talk about that, but considering that this was pretty major I figured I'd leave one thing at a time for now. 



But yah, just sayin'?  Thank you, all of you, for being awesome, for supporting me, and just being you and making me realizing that my life is truly 100% blessed. 

.....


/points to the icon


Okay so.......that whole me going out on a saturday night is outta my mind now that I watched that.


I don't wanna go to work now and spend my day/night in so I can play Umineko till my eyeballs fall out.....







I hate you virgilia I really do.....

/RUNS OFF TO WORK NOW JEEZ

Hi all,

So I'm relaying some news.

virgilia 's sister had another blip today and the bad news was that she flat linesd for a couple minutes.....

BUT and here's the but she she was resucitated AND WOKE UP. Which is AWESOME, too bad I'm still like panicy about it or something lol.

But she wanted me to tell you all that are mutual friends with her that she might go off the radar until then

lavaliere :  You know her account info right?  I don't mind posting it on her account to those that I'm not friended with. 

❝who do you ship me with?❞

in b4 last time I ever do this kinda thingg


EDIT FUCKING YOU RICH TEXT FUUUUUUUUUUCK YOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!!!!!!

HNNNNNNNNNNNNGH

I STARTED WATCHING LA CORDA D'ORO TODAY

OH

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GAWD

FUCK.  I've always had a week spot for activity themed school anime particularly musical with Nodame Cantabile.  But THIS, oh my GAWD FUCK IT'S LIKE LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.  The music is gorgeous and the plot I'm already hooked to. PLUS THE "HAREM' GUYS Ryou is fucking awesome and GAH AMAZINGand FUCK I'M IN LOVE WITH KAZUUKKKI HIHARA.  He's so fucking adorkable I SWEAR.  He reminds me of like Idfk the combination of Sora from KH and uuuh fuck what's his name from Kuukai from Shugo Chara.  Also I ALREADY SHIP A PAIR LIKE BUUUUUUURNING. Oh man it's so good, I really really really wanna keep watching it.  And the music is so gjripoejgerio PRETTY,   DAMMIT I WANT YUNOKI TO PLAY SO I CAN HEAR FUCKING GORGEOUS FLUTE MUSIC HNNNNNNNNNNNG.

OH MAN AND THE CAST IS AMAZING TOO.  Just so much good talent and LMFAO, apparently the seiyuu for Ichigo is the same as Hihara even though they sound COMPLETELY different LMFAO. Then again...his voice does remind me of Kon pfffffffffffffffff. 

chocoshins chocoshins chocoshins YOU WATCH/READ HTAT RIIIIIGHT I HOPE. DAMN I NEED SOMEONE TO FANGIRL WITH THIS WITH!!


......................

/sigh

/goes back to apps

Sneaking in to your LJ's with the grooviest AND BEST renames ever.

P.S GUYS

hydraphoenix --> nobless_oblige

8-)

P.P.S. and yes there is one less e because noblesseoblige was taken

WHY YES, YES I AM MAKING A POST JUST TO USE THIS ICON AND hikaritoyamii IS MADE OF WIN BECAUSE OF IT


SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


No one needs to know, ok? Okay.



So no longer irritation, I htink I was just tired.  AND LMFAOLMFAO I TOOK A SIX HOUR NAP TODAY HAHAHHAHAHA.

Now I'm just chillin' waitin for my deliciously pink sauce garlic raviolis with chicken from Blackjack pasta to be dellivered and then yummyness will ensue and will watch Eden of the East episode 2.

Man it's AWESOME to have a free night from work.....though I probably should do my Samurai reading considered I skipped lecture today

.......meh?

So I was procrastinating doing my paper when I stumbled upon this video from last week's supernatural episode.

You know those fics where the characters read fic online about themselves and their like "..........................................what?"

Well try to imagine if a show actually did that....like for real.  Apart of the show.  They find that there's stuff about themselves and their like "ew, what"

Even if you don't watch the show, you gotta watch it for the love that the show actually make fun of crazy fangirls. 

Prepare for the epic lulz.

EDIT:  Possible spoilers if you aren't up to date for those that care, though most of you crazy people don't care about spoilers.  So yah just figured I'd give the dislaimer.  Thanks to solar_cat for the heads up.  



........Have I ever mentioned just how much I love this show?  Because oh wow I freakin' do.

NOW, back to work for real. 

Oh and welcome breepants to my lair BWAHAHAHA

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FUCK.
YES.

Now I don't have to be worrying about where my life is headed. FUCKING AWESOME!!

Also speaking of keysmashes w-welcome chocoshins /bows down to your awesomeness

But this just brought a smile to my face really.

There's a hold up going on in Salem right now.  And while I was OHSHI- about it, I really couldn't help but lol at this. That is my guy friends makin' stats for the assailant. 

 KnightOfNi416 (7:01:44 PM): haha.  touche.  but you know, a loaded knife can be very dangerous
 NerdBoyHasNoLife (7:02:50 PM): This is very true.  But I wonder about his DEX score, as stated before.  Obviously, INT is 5, and WIS is 3
 NerdBoyHasNoLife (7:04:58 PM): I doubt his CHA is very high as well
 KnightOfNi416 (7:05:10 PM): CHA score of 4, if his intimidation tactics are was handknife out the window, for a cop to shoot his hand
 KnightOfNi416 (7:05:35 PM): *was to wave a knife
 NerdBoyHasNoLife (7:06:13 PM): So, I gather his scores...STR 10, DEX 12, CON 9, INT 5, WIS 3, CHA 8
 NerdBoyHasNoLife (7:06:18 PM): ...wow, we're horrible, lol
 KnightOfNi416 (7:06:34 PM): CHA of 4.  and yes we are very horrible.  haha
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[19:09] NerdBoyHasNoLife: lmfao
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You two, Spaz and Palmer are the biggest dorks in the world and are horrible.  But for that same reason you guys are epic, and awesome, and this made me smile when I was feelin' kinda brooding.

My friends win, really. 

Studying for finals is seriously owning my ass.  I'm worrying for the first time this semester because I'm not all that confident I'll do well since I skipped so many classes due to my poor health in November and December.  I really hope I'll be ok and I'm sure I will...doesn't help that I'm worrying like crazy. 

AND TO DISTRACT ME AND MY FELLOW SUFFERES OF STUDYING I GIVE YOU THIS LITTLE TREASURE NOW IN "HD QUALITY".

BWAHAHAHA!

And so it begins.....

jihoptwjoierw YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY :SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:

ngoerpwj ITS FINALLY COMING, ITS FINALLY COMING IN MAY EEEEK!

I know this has been online before, but I haven't seen it in good quality, and I didn't nearly hear all the words.  And seeing the HD quality when dowloaded and not from youtube made me drool. 

I saw snippets of the Wolverine's past part when it was in fact animated but I didn't see too much to know in terms of characters or story; like I might have seen like a minute or two.  But I do vaguely remember the black haired chick/love interest and some of the other people on the team.  All that I can say is I am QUITE excited.  Not to mention Hugh's hair looks HAAAWT in this movie lololol

Speaking of which, anybody know where in the show that was or where in the comic book it was?  I figured where I have at least three comic book nerd friends that somebody would know. 
EDIT:  truenerdking , lithiumlaughter , and green_amberjade ? Help me out here

I realized today just how much big fan of Gambit I am know, maybe even more so than Wolverine which is sayin' something considering he's my second favorite character (and yes she is a character not an "alternate personality">xxxxxxx>. DAMN YOU AMBER AND PERCY, DAMN YOU :SHAKES FIST AT:and is it just me or does he look exceedingly sexy in that one shot with the hat

ALSO truenerdking , Are we possibly getting a group of people together to go see Spirit? Cuz I'd be totally down with that. And this trailer reminded me that its coming out soon. Y/N?Alright...so I've been procrastinating for an hour now, time to get back to the grind.  WISH ME LUCK EVERYBODY

OH AND EVEN THOUGH HE CAN'T READ THIS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST DAD IN THE WORLD, YOU ROCK SRSLY!!

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Ok....so this was an observation I just had

New Engladn weather? or Boston Weather?

...is severely fucked up.

I'd never tihnk that one day I wake up and it's 16 degrees out with a windchill of making it at about 5, during the day. 

To have the following day, start at about the 30's during the day, rise to the 40's, is NOW 53-4 AT 10 AT NIGHT.  AND IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE 60 DEGREES TOMORROW! And to top it all off there's a chance it might snow on thursday.

But seriously....going from 16...to 60...in December.

Even for around here that's a little much. 

I know I've lived here all my life...but even that's a new one for me.  Normally it get's colder when it becomes night time, not the reverse.  

Just...wierd. 

And now back to your regularly scheduled programming already in progress. 

So changed my default because as you know I must pay homage to what happened sunday morning. And end of an era really.

Code Geass ended.

Yes I am being overly dramatic but at the same time I'm not.  Because normally I'd see an end to anime and brush it over and maybe mention it briefly in and LJ entry.  

But I'm doing this for two reasons a.)  Code Geass has been my IT fandom pretty much since the spring if not earlier.  I've been so involved in it that I can't think of too many fandoms I'm as dedicated and hardcore about as it.  And hell, I even finally managed to post fic about it and

Most importantly b.) The ending was beyond words..."perfect" "just right' "depressing but nice"...are all words that don't justify it. Not only was it well done, but it was actually what I wanted and should've happened

Since I know some of you have/haven't watched Code Geass nor do I know how many of you intend to, I will put it all behind a cut.  And don't go snooping around into it if you get curious (I'M TALKING TO YOU SA!!) because you will ruin something really precious.  But if you aren't really intending to see Geass any time soon, I do make some interesting points.  And if you haven't/don't want to see it yet.  Maybe my discussion will provoke interest, or at least discussion....Idk

GEASS FANS PLEASE REPLY TO THIS, I'd love to hear what you think of what I say.  Despite this thing being so freaken long.  I had a lot to say and I wanted to get it all of my chest while I still could. 

So here we go my evaluation of the finale, why I loved it, the one problem I had with(in which I ACTUALLY BRING MY MAJOR INTO IT, WHY YES), little fangirl section, and conclusion.  

Jeesh, it's like writing a freaking paper. 

( Destroying....worlds....Creating....Worlds )

But yes in conclusion, it was not only what I wanted for an ending for Code Geass but also what I wanted as ending for an anime in general.  Bittersweet but real, and exactly what I expected for an ending for geass.  I dont' think I've ever been so content to see an anime end as I have with this finale of Geass.  And honestly, this will probably be in the record books for my favorite ending to an anime.

And if you haven't done so already, seriously....watch Code Geass.  Season 1 rocks.  Some of Season 2 is pretty good while parts are just...terrible but you want to keep.  And as I said...well despite it being kinda depressing I thought the ending was completely...complete.  Now as utopian and crazy and flawed as that may sound.  I think that is brilliant. 

Oh and on a side note WELCOME WELCOME TO astria  andexcels they both rock and are both really chilling people. HOORAY~~

And now...I seriously need to go back to doing my Japan history homework, even though I had to get all these thoughts out in order for me to do homework in the first place. 

NOW IRONICALLY OFF TO READ FOR JAPANESE HISTORY.  Since...I kinda need to go do that like...now.

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